A former member of the Pussycat Dolls has candidly spoken about her experience in the pop group, describing it as feeling more like prostitution than a girl band.
Kaya Jones said there was constant control over her body and decisions, feeling like a “slave” to her dream, and having no access to personal thoughts, space, choices or decisions. She also spoke of the feeling of being trafficked.
In the interview with pro-life group Students for Life of America, Jones said: “I can't tell you how many times I had to push men off of me, tell them no.”
She recounted a time when she was performing and noticed two little girls in the crowd looking up to her in adoration, even though at the moment, no one knew she was going through an abortion.
“There was nothing beautiful about me. I was tainted, I was destructive, I was destroyed. I was completely enchained and in bondage to the devil, or the enemy or the realm of death, if you will, where I was living in my worst self.
“I was not living in my purpose. My purpose was to change the world, to use my voice to empower young women. And I now was basically saying, ‘Well, you can be… sexually overly perverse, doing things that you're not happy about, low self-esteem which leads to promiscuity, ultimately, which leads to you having an abortion that you wish you never even encountered’, because it's painful beyond measure”.
In that moment in 2004, Jones was having her second abortion, and said she had an “ah ha moment” during the performance that she had to exit the girl band.
She shared that her first abortion was as a teenager before she joined the Pussycat Dolls, and her last one was the age of 30 after being raped by someone she trusted.
The now 38-year-old said her relationship with God and prayer is what led her to come to terms the abortions, although she insisted that you “never get over it”.
“Each one I've had to pray about, each one I've had to talk to God about, it has been a very private journey in getting my well-being mentally, emotionally, spiritually intact”.
The Canadian born singer-songwriter believes there a need for society to take a hard look at the messages it promotes about beauty, fame, and success, and the impact they have on individuals and the community as a whole.
“But unfortunately, people don't want to talk to young women about it [abortion], in the way that I feel we should start talking to young women about it. Instead of just demonizing it or putting all these regulations, we have to come up with some kind of understanding of the damage, because it's very damaging. And when you've had one, you think you can keep having them. You don't think it's a big deal. And I genuinely think our culture has turned it into a form… of contraception”.
In 2017, Jones made smilair comments comaring being in the Pussycat Dolls to being part of a "prostitution ring". The group responded with a statement saying they could not stand by “false” words and activities that “simply did not take place”.
“To liken our professional roles in The Pussycat Dolls to a prostitution ring not only undermines everything we worked hard to achieve for all those years but also takes the spotlight off the millions of victims who are speaking up and being heard loud and clear around the world,” they said.
“While we were not aware of Kaya's experiences that allegedly took place during her short time working with us, before the group signed a recording contract, we can firmly testify that we were not privy to any misconduct taking place around us".
Jones, who’s currently single, said she’s made the decision to only be in a relationship with someone who is celibate and hopes one day God will give her “the blessing” of becoming a mother.
“I don't want to put myself in another situation where I’ve not accepted the fruit from heaven, which is children. Children are a blessing from God. You are so blessed to have that blessing. And I hope to one day be able to be a mum, I hope to be a wife, and to be able to share what I do believe is the greatest gift.”
Since leaving the Pussycat Dolls, Jones developed a solo career and in 2019 won a Grammy Award for a collaboration with gospel artist Jason Crabb.
She said she’s also dedicated her life to “using her testimony and experience to point the world to the lifesaving message of Jesus Christ”.